“You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one”
Michael Mcmillan
Today, the writing bug struck. It has been years since I posted anything on my blog. I have been on what seemed like a writing sabbatical over the past three years and just could not get myself to write. But today was going to be different. I was going to write. I was going to revisit my website and content so that I could start setting up a freelancing portfolio. As I logged into my hosting site getting ready to dust off the cobwebs something was missing, my site. Gone, completely gone. All of my content was deleted and the worst part, I backed nothing up.
I was angry, I was sad, I was all of those emotions I had years ago when going through my stages of grief. How could I have neglected something that was once so crucial to my healing journey? When I called the hosting site to find out what happened, I was told that I did not renew in time. That emails were sent with the warning that my site would be deleted. I ignored them all. To be honest, I have been ignoring quite a bit in my life lately.
I wanted to be so angry at the man on the other end of the phone telling me how sorry he was. He even offered to give me an introductory rate to start over as a way to make up for me having lost the five years of work I put into my blog. I was too angry at that moment to say yes. I immediately hung up and just sat there almost in shock. How was I going to start over again?
I tried to think of every possibility as to why this would have happened. Why it seems like everything always goes wrong. Why I am the best starring actress in my own movie, ready for my Oscar-worthy moment playing the role of the victim. I wanted to feel sorry for myself. But then as I was sitting there processing what was lost something amazing happened, an overwhelming sense of peace. In that moment, I made a choice. I chose not to let this little hiccup in my story bring me down. I chose peace and acceptance, realizing it was time to move on and start something new.
My blog helped me get through the betrayal of my ex-husband. It helped push me in ways I never imagined. It gave me the courage to move on to new things, even though it meant change. It gave me my voice. I have conquered fears, broken through barriers I never imagined I could, and grown in ways that I am very proud of.
The blog being deleted signifies the end of that part of my journey and the beginning of something even greater than before. It is officially time to move on and begin the next chapter. Welcome to The Daily Choice Project! Empowering your daily choices for a life of purpose and possibility.
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